I'm kinda feeling really sad tonight. It feels like every time I'm happy, every time, it's only a fleeting feeling, a passing emotion.

Why do you think that is?

No need to complicate
Our time is short
It cannot wait,
I'm yours.

Haiseyy. It's only Monday yet I feel so tired.

But yay, we fasted today. (:

German is really starting to get on my nerves. Grrrr.

Basking in your afterglow..

Isn't that one of the prettiest things you have ever seen?

I have a thing for butterflies. And I have a thing for white gold.

Talk about high maintenance, huh?

But you know what? I think the lovely part about all these accessories is, well, being able to buy them for yourself. So no worries - it isn't a hint to anyone, it's simply..well, I just love butterflies and dragonflies.

Silly ol' me. Other girls love dolphins [a common favourite] but I go for insects. =S

Malam Pentas at Taman Warisan..

Firstly, I gotta say..Hudy did a great job as PD, seeing how smoothly the night went and how everyone seemed to really enjoy themselves. And my goodness, I had no idea Liza could sing that well! The first song she did was Christina Aguilera's Hurt and whoaa, awesome vocals! I bet the audience was really touched when she teared up towards the end and gave a short speech about the work the committee had put in. I have pictures from the performances but I won't put them up because most of them are blurry. It's not my fault! The performers wouldn't stop moving. So err, don't bother scrolling down unless you want to see just our pictures. Shimmy and LegShort's song was pretty nice too, thought it was a great way to end the night. Seeing as how they are such avid supporters of Taufik Batisah, they sang one of his songs - Usah Lepaskan. (:

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
01: My favourite picture for the night, taken while I was sitting outside with Shikin, waiting for the others. Love the talk I had with her. 02: Pretty [albeit a little blurry] shophouses.



Open up your plans and damn you're free
03: This girl is amazing, she planned a surprise for me by bringing Huda! They were both in on it and they carried it out soo smoothly. ♥

I remember forgetting to reply Huda's message about us going out and messaging her the next day, asking her to go to Vivo with me on Friday but she didn't reply initially [which made paranoid me worry if she was upset] and replied only on Thursday night saying she wasn't free. I invited her to Malam Pentas too but she couldn't make it then either. I was really sad about having to go alone, [Shaza was reaching late because of her yoga class] but just slit into whichever crowd I bumped into. THEN..yay! Heard Kamal calling me from the door, I suppose because I didn't hear my hp when they called, sorry darls! Couldn't see why Shaza wanted me to go outside [we need specs, YO!] so I just went out there and... saw one of my best girlies. (: (: (:



Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
04: Liza. (: A little blurry but she rocked!







My breath fogged up the glass and so I drew a new face and laughed
05, 06, 07: Taken during the performances and my funny-face-tak-jadi.



There's no need to complicate, our time is short
08: Aidil was our camera-man for the night. This was taken after the entire show, on our way out. He's not bad with the camera although his hands do tend to shake. =P



I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
09: I just really like the whole atmosphere here. PLUS, I hardly get to be out this late, so that adds on to the whole experience I guess. =D



To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
10, 11: We were hungry! So I finally got my ZamZam murtabak, huh?





It's what we aim to do
12, 13, 14: Shaza, Aidil and Shimmy - supper companions. :D Can't! believe! I! got! to! stay! out! for! supper!



Our name is our virtue
15, 16: While waiting for them to finish - before and after.



It cannot wait, I'm yours
17: My second most favourite picture of the night.. Isn't it just so picturesque?

Dangerous Angels

"He kissed her. A kiss about apple pie à la mode with the vanilla creaminess melting in the pie heat. A kiss about chocolate, when you haven't eaten chocolate in a year. A kiss about palm trees speeding by, trailing pink clouds when you drive down the Strip sizzling with champagne. A kiss about spotlights fanning the sky and the swollen sea spilling like tears all over your legs."

Today I had the best ever conversation at Megabites with Adilah. It was funny, really. First when we bumped into each other at the train station and I was looking in the wrong direction for the stupid mats. Then later, finding shortcuts about campus, haha. And yay! Our lessons are only two doors away!

So we had lunch together just now. Our first lunch together in a veryy long time and I'm sure there will be many many more to come. <3.

Signed, sealed, delivered,
I'm yours.

Me:

Guten nacht! Ich habe bärenhunger und ich bin schlet. Die Nacht ist sehrschön aber du kennen es. Diese ist interresieren und macht viel spaß.

Shaza:

Oh. Was ist schlet? Ja, und ich liebe sehr die Nacht und das Mond!

Me:
Was ist Mond? Oh. I feel lousy. Haha aber es ist ok!

Shaza:

Mond ist 'moon' im Deutsch! Ja, es ist ok! Ich bin lausig auch.


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I think that's about right.

Photo from CLS main website.

I worry I won't see your face light up again,

I really love my friends. I appreciate the fact that they're always there for me and I love love love the talks we have; be it during lectures or lunch quickies. Just like how I love the phone calls accompanying me during quiet walks home, especially at the scary part or lovely, unexpected good-night messages that just..surprise me and simply make my night.

I miss hugging them, you know?

But I do need to fatten Adilah up so I have something to rest my head against when I'm sleepy! Haha (: <3 you, babe. <3 you too, ShazieBaby.

By the way, I'll tell you the date in German okay? Since I should be practicing and Deutsch Zwei [German II] is harddd.

Heute ist vierundzwanzigste Januar. ♥.

Photo taken at the Botanic Gardens, while I was lying down, lol.

Visit this site dedicated to Rachel Joy Scott, a girl killed in the Columbine shootings in the late 1990s. Reading her journal is especially sad because it makes everything seem all the more human, instead of simply an "incident that occurred thousands of kilometers away from Singapore".

I'll be at your side.

When the daylight's gone and you're on your own,
and you need a friend just to be around,
I will comfort you, I will take your hand,
and I'll pull you through, I will understand.
and you know that -
I'll be at your side, there's no need to worry,
together we'll survive through the haste and hurry.


I was continually distracted by them. How can I resist them? Kiki wandering in and out of the box, sniffing at it as though it's going to jump at her, Gandos curled up on my table, beside me.


Yeh yeh, distractions. Anything to avoid the readings, huh.


"Only on Sunday night" companions, haha. Bet you can tell that I was doing everything I could to avoid focusing on the readings. It was not a productive night. :D

Midweek!

On Monday, I had three lectures in a row. Ah..the price of having a four-day week. The worse part is that the middle lecture is over at Computing, which means I have to make my way all the way there, and then all the way back. It's a one hour lecture though so I wonder how long it'll be before I start skipping. =P

Tuition's been going okay too albeit she's soo talkative! Which most of the time cracks me up, haha. What's interesting is to see things from a 13 year old's perspective, be amused and then think to yourself, "Hey, I thought of that when I was her age too!" But you know, seeing people study, seeing how concentrated they are and how they persevere can really motivate you.

Oh! Believe it or not, I actually fell asleep while standing on the train! I think it was yesterday, because I was tired out from the long day Monday and the early day Tuesday. When it happened, and when I had woken up [of course], I was excited because I'd heard of my friends falling asleep while standing [especially during NS, lol] but it had never happened to me before so yay!

Haha, talk about cheap thrills, huh..

I managed to get all my tutorials on my first attempt. That's really good k! Last semester I only got two, and one out of that - I got my last choice. So this time around, I just put one choice for each rank and left it at that. Alhamdullilah, I was really lucky this time around.

Yay. On Monday, the Globalisation and Politics lecture was cool! Dr Rappa was hilarious! Singapore Girl..A great way to fly. The best part was that after the lecture, I made a new friend and we realized we were in the same two PS lectures together! How amazing is that?! Haha :D

This one, my friends, was taken earlier today with Shaza darling. We each received roses at the forum [in celebration of V-bash] and so we took this picture while at Megabytes. Haha, I had the chicken roll sandwich, she ordered the egg mayo sandwich and we swapped half so we had a little of both. =D Doesn't this picture remind you of a picture from a long time ago? 2004, Valentine's Day, at Temasek Junior College. That time it was using her camera and I think we were holding Gerberas instead. =)

Tschus!

♥, hot chocolate.

Alrightey folks. A new template for a new year, for a new semester. About two weeks late for the former and one week for the latter.

I feel tired right now albeit happy. I think it's because things are finally looking up..if you ignore, of course, the pimple break-out, the ugly hair-cut and other trivial what nots.

But I still feel happy. Maybe it has to do with hormones. *shrugs*

Whatever it is, I hope this light-hearted feeling doesn't go away because I could use it, after a rough past few months.

I just have this tingly feeling in the pit of my stomach that tells me that everything's going to be all right. It's going to be a great year, I just know it. =)

Sunday morning, rain is pouring -

Love the view that greets me every morning when I roll out of bed. Rain or shine, it's still lovely. Yeppers, I know I'm lucky to get the room with the balcony!

It's been such a lazy Sunday. I haven't done anything productive of late. I only just finished printing out notes for three of my modules..I have two more to go and German! I'm a little apprehensive because I reckon I've forgotten alot of the words. I remember when Herr [Mr] Kim told us to revise during the holidays if we planned on continuing the following semester, I was thinking that I needn't bother because there was no way I was going to continue! But now..well. Learning a new language and immersing yourself in it's culture [because that's what half of each lesson is about] is enriching and a helluva lot of fun. Although it might be less fun this semester because Shaza and I are in different lecture groups.

Oh and it's been raining the whole day! If you're smart, you'll be like Gandos here - curled up in my bed, between my teddy bears. Lucky she's not lying on my lovely red satin robe or it'll be war!

But you know, at least she's considerate enough to cuddle up at the side of my bed. Kiki always plops herself down right in the middle and most of the time, I'll be so happy that that snobby little missy has actually decided to [errm] grace my bed with her presence, that I don't have the heart to move her.

Anyway the four of us - my two sisters, my mom and I have just returned from a relative's house in Kembangan. We visited them because they wanted to meet up with my sister Ana, after her return from Perth. Whenever we go to their house, we will always discover new stories about my other relatives..funny childhood stories and such. I still remember recently during raya when we went there and my aunt told us of a really funny habit my mom used to have and it became even funnier because my dad started adding on to it and teasing her about it, lol.

Well I spent the morning and afternoon cleaning my room, right? Maybe now with a cleaner study table, I can be more motivated to study.

*cracks knuckles*

p.s. I tried creating a new sort of border for the pictures. Took a long time but I like the result! (:

"The person you want to be does exist; somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief. And, beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead."

Sometimes the greatest journey is the distance between two people.

I loved The Painted Veil. Maybe because I read too much into it, so I'm interpreting the movie differently.

K, I liked it because the girl seemed to be too sure of herself. Funny reason for liking a movie, huh? Maybe it's because I'm realizing that I've been too sure of myself and I'm not liking that about myself at all.

I liked it too because it was about making mistakes, learning to forgive and at the same time, learning a thing or two about humility.

To me, it seemed as though she thought she knew what she was getting into when she had an affair, she was so sure that she wouldn't fall in love and get hurt - she was so sure that she was guarding herself - but that was exactly what happened to her when she fell in love with the other guy and he let her down eventually by refusing to divorce his own wife and marry her when her husband found out.

So she has no choice but to follow her husband to China [lest face a scandalous divorce], which was at that time ravaged by a cholera epidemic, knowing [or thinking] that he despises her. It's there that she begins to fall in love with him and she herself embarks on a journey of self-discovery.

Fast forward many scenes on battling the outbreak. Fast forward many scenes where you just know that he still loves her deep down but is still punishing her for what she did to him. Later on, they acknowledge how they feel for each other and then, she discovers she's pregnant and she's not sure who the father is. But when she confesses to her husband, he took it really well - well at first he was really happy that she was pregnant but when she told him she honestly wasn't sure who the father was, he still accepted it after a momentary pause and they embrace.

Such a sweet sweet moment! It seems amazing that he's there by her throughout everything and he was so patient with her and trusting because he knew she wouldn't let him down in the end. I know. Seems idealistic, but really, there was so much beauty in everything there. That he was there for her even when she had made a mistake and hurt him so badly.

But later on, he catches cholera and she goes to him. This time, it's her by his side. I found it so moving that when he sees her beside him, he even warns her that it's going to get worse for him so she has to prepare herself.

In the end, he passes away. But she was there with him the entire time.

Later on, as she clears his stuff, she finds a stack of his notes and she starts crying big, gut-wrenching sobs when she recognizes his handwriting.

You used to laugh out loud but you can't remember when.

'Cause there's a thousand lights that'll make you feel brand new, but if you ever lose your way, I'll leave one on for you.

And the whole world crumbles right beneath you.

Oh, didn't i, didn't i, didn't I see you crying?
Feeling all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dying.

Refrain.

Everything I am,
And everything in me,
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down,
Even if I could,
Give up everything,
If only for your good,

So hold me when I'm here,
Love me when I'm wrong,
Hold me when I'm scared,
And love me when I'm gone.

The walls start breathing, my minds unweaving, maybe it's best you leave me alone. A weight is lifted on this evening, I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

All hail the All American Rejects. I rememeber hearing this song once in the car, falling in love with it and later watching it on MTV. I love the video for it too. I love watching him play the piano, I love seeing the pretty pretty fireworks.

Anyway school's been okay. Apart, of course, from the mad rush to drop Metaphysics and take another PS module instead. Metaphysics was interesting, mind-boggling even but I dropped it because I couldn't see a future with Philosophy.

From my notes:
Multiplicity is an illusion. Being is One, because if it were not one, it would be divided into multiple parts. But if it were divided, it would have to be divided by something else. But besides being there is only non-being - nothing. So being is divided by nothing. Therefore, Being is One.

See what I mean by thought-provoking?

Four people have favourited my pictures!

My little wild one,
I'll come back to you.

That's one of my all-time favourite songs. =) Anyway check out my deviantART gallery here. I've uploaded some new pictures..a result of being very bored today. I didn't spend alot of time on them, I went downstairs at around 6.30pm, grabbed the camera, walked around snapping some pictures and then just edited them a little and submitted them. Was done by 7pm. Zowee! I need to learn how to do this properly.

I'm wondering if this blog ought to go private once again. Hehe. Ooh I was browsing through my Friendster just now..deleted all those people who I do not know but who I accepted on a whim. I don't normally accept 'adds' from people I don't know but I recently did just that when I was in a lousy mood and now I've rid my account of people-I-don't-know. Haha.

I'm high tonight. How not to be when one of my favourite songs is playing? (:

This entry is a very belated toast to 2007. People need new beginnings. Every day is a new day, every year is a new year. New beginnings are all around us. Although we shouldn't restrict ourselves to new beginnings only at the start of a new year, I'm not complaining about any reason/excuse to forgive and forget!

2007? You might bring along your fair share of tribulations but I say bring it on.

Here's to sunny days ahead. =)

With them I feel like I'm wasting my time, with you I feel like I'm losing my mind.